Article - Laura Knight-Jadczyk
Coming back now to recapitulation, it seems that, utilized correctly, it is a process of "thinking with a hammer," and making associations. Recapitulation can be a tool by which awareness is enhanced.
According to Don Juan, recapitulation consists in hashing over and reliving one's experiences. One must attempt to remember every possible, minute detail. When this is done within a group, it becomes the essence of what Paul wrote when he said "confess your sins one to the other." The C's say "network" and "air it out." The result seems to be that recapitulation increases awareness, which then enables us to apply what we are now aware of in practical ways, and thus, we are enabled to begin the process of reclaiming our energy, and making better choices about who or what we "connect" to or "associate with" in terms of our interactions with people and situations that we encounter in our daily lives.
The way this may work is that, by recapitulation, we are discovering principles. We are looking at an event in the real world, considering the psychological "real" reason, and associating it to the Theological reason. This means that we are firing the the pyramidal cells in the hippocampus because we are coming at the issue with numerous inputs at once. This then ships the information off to the neo-cortex where more synapses are formed, and more thinking capacity results, and a feedback loop is established.
As we go along, I am going to give some concrete examples of individuals who, under the "pressure" of recapitulation, simply fly to pieces. They become confused and unable to cope with the demands of "thinking with a hammer."
According to Don Juan, recapitulating an event starts with one's mind arranging everything pertinent to what is being recapitulated. Arranging means reconstructing the event, piece by piece, starting with recollecting the physical details of the surroundings, then remembering the person with whom one shared the interaction, and then proceeding to the examination of the self and one's own feelings. This is extremely important, and the reader will recognize echoes of the "self-remembering" of Gurdjieff and will also see the associative properties of creating the multiple inputs for the hippocampus.
Don Juan taught that recapitulation ought to be accompanied by deep breathing and slowly moving the head back and forth. These may be useful techniques, but we are dealing here with a form of recapitulation that includes a network, so we have to sort of wing it and figure out the process as we go along.
As a general rule, the Matrix discourages recapitulation. It teaches us to "forgive and forget" and "make nice" and think in strictly 3rd density terms. We are beginning to realize that this is a program, and it is the main reason so many of us suffer for so many years; we are trying to "make nice" when things clearly are NOT nice.
And how easily we are persuaded to STOP seeing, to stop thinking, to stop examining, and to most definitely NOT make any choices based on any such perceptions.
We have already mentioned the fact that we are programmed to NOT do "post mortems" on our relationships because it is considered to be "gossip." We are discouraged from talking about our ongoing interactions and the clues we see, because it is "not nice" or it is "two faced" or whatever. In hundreds of different ways, we are programmed to not examine our interactions, and most especially our own "take" on things at one time as opposed to another.
My ex-husband accused me repeatedly of being "inconstant" in my opinions because I was always analyzing things moment by moment, and working with a sort of "rapid feedback loop" in terms of my experiences. Well, heck, nobody wants to be accused of being flaky or inconstant. And it is used as a weapon against us, to keep us as food.
Most importantly, the Matrix, the Predator, or the 4th density STS controllers, do NOT want us to govern our lives by what we see when we recapitulate. They do not want us to "spot the program" and refuse to run it. They do not want us to see the small clues that our energy is being drained, and learn that it is not only okay to disengage from association with such individuals, it is required! It is okay to figure out that somebody is not what we thought they were. It is okay to decide that we don't have to continue in a relationship with that person because we know from our experiences, from our recapitulation, that there is so little possibility that they will change that it is almost not worth considering. It is okay to admit we were evaluating or making choices based certain information that has now been superceded by deeper or more accurate information. It is okay to simply come to the realization that we have been slowly manipulated into making one choice after another that we didn't really want to make, and now we have decided that we don't want to be manipulated anymore. We are allowed to change our minds as often as our minds change. And if our minds are open, and in tune with the infinite possibilities of the cosmos, that can be rather frequent.
Recently, I received an email from a friend. In this email, he told me some really ugly things about an individual he recently realized was a "psychic vampire" in his own life. He described a meeting where he and this individual were having a discussion with two other men, one of them a writer and film producer, and expert on "sacred geometry" and mysticism in general. My friend described how this well-known man excused himself about ten or so minutes into the discussion, and left. A few days later, he called my friend and told him that there was something VERY wrong with the "psychic vampire" and that he would not be willing to work with my friend in any way as long as he was interacting with this man.
My friend said that the only reason he disregarded this warning was because "I am a man of my word. I had made a promise."
He then ended up spending several years being manipulated, drained of energy, drained of cash, suffering losses to his reputation, and finally being stabbed in the back by the psychic vampire.
In short, he had warning. Not just his own instincts, because he confessed that he was uneasy about this collaboration, but another person clearly and plainly told him "I can't associate with you as long as you associate with him." And the guy who said this was obviously somebody who knew about energy and how it is drained, and how to spot such people and decline to interact.
And that is what we need most desperately to learn.
What was it the guy said: "I am a man of my word. I had made a promise."
Well, guess what? This is another program. And we begin to get a niggling suspicion that this was the real reason that Jesus taught that a person ought not to swear about anything; because new information can, at any moment, change the perspective, the reality, and our lives. And we ought to always be free to change our direction at any moment, the same way the pilot of a ship makes constant corrections in the heading based on the different external influences such as the wind and sea currents, etc.
Life is like that: there is wind, there are currents, and it is somewhat chaotic. If we do not examine it, stay alert to these things, we will end up far off course and never reach our destination.
This series is a recapitulation. It is the performance of an act of power. But it is not just MY recapitulation; it is the recapitulation of a much larger group and soul dynamic. It is the act of opening doors to other realities because, as I proceed, as I think back and study what I remember, attempting to be as accurate as possible, as I think back over why I did what I did, how I felt, how the different people acted or reacted, as I search through the transcripts to jog my memory - because the transcripts are mostly a diary of my personal life and thinking, and for that reason alone, belong to me - I am finding that much of the material from C's that never made complete sense before is now beginning to fit together in a surprising way.
And it seems that many other people are recapitulating right along with us here.
I am also seeing something else: In every case where I have held back telling anything, I have done so for the very reasons cited above: I was acting according to the rules, out of courtesy, or because I was "giving the benefit of the doubt," or "turning the other cheek," or making nice. And, as the C's have pointed out, expecting something to "turn out differently" from what it is at the moment of realizing what the program is, is "wishful thinking." And wishful thinking is the essence of Service to Self.
At the time that many of the attacks were going on, we did not write about them, we did not share them, we tried to keep them private for the sake of giving more chances for the others involved to do something else that would heal the breach. We were always expecting them to just wake up and see that we are not their adversary, that we do not want to interfere in their lives, that we simply and only want to live our lives in the best way we know how; to have the right to our own choices, even if those choices include NOT associating with them in any way. We wanted them to understand that we had realized that our mutual energies were obviously not in sync, so let's have a parting of the ways. At each stage of the process, we have waited and hoped that this realization would arise in their minds. But it seems that such things never occur to people who are filled with their own self-importance. Such individuals become furious when their self-importance is provoked. They talk themselves into a state of righteous indignation that anyone would dare to refuse to associate with them; that anyone would dare to assert the right to their own space, be it real or virtual; that anyone would dare to make them look like a fool.
And then they go out and make themselves look like fools.
And here we come to the primary issue: When we identify the fact that our energy fields are not "compatible," or that there is a drain, we have the right to choose to disassociate ourselves. We have not only the right, but if we are truly seeking higher knowledge, it is a necessity.
According to Don Juan, recapitulation is an exercise to recall, review, release, and recharge energy. And so it is, what we are about to recount is a series of encounters with what Don Juan called "Petty Tyrants." But, before we do, I would like to present to the reader who may never have read the chapter in Castaneda's The Fire From Within that is devoted to the subject. It is a delightful, hilarious account of deep and important principles of awareness and energy conservation. Everytime I read it I laugh with glee to see the very situation we are dealing with here so humorously depicted, petty tyrants who attempt to annoy us to distraction.
But, that is really a good thing. Because, as Don Juan has said, "the warrior who stumbles on a petty tyrant is a lucky one... because if you don't, you have to go out and look for one." The objective is, of course, that if an individual can hold their own in facing petty tyrants, they can certainly face the unknown with impunity, and then they can even stand the presence of the unknowable."
In other words, we are enormously grateful for the petty tyrants in our life at present. That we have them, and so many, indeed, gives me great hope that this very process of recapitulation, undertaken with self-restraint, will achieve the very pragmatic goal of serving others.
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